my final stop (maybe)....

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Once again...I have abandoned my blog..hehehe...coming back from visiting, I started writing my thesis with the hope to complete it by August but I know the chance of me doing so is so slim!!! anyway.....

(Pic: Old Town Warsaw) Chilling out after my exam, I made a trip to Poland (2-10 July), this time was all by myself. Enthusiastically, I brought along my laptop thinking about writing my thesis but there was no way to write it during a vacation :p   (bikin panat ja bawa laptop). Had a chance to meet a Sabahan there, a cutie Denna J. Mojuntin who is currently pursuing her studies in Medicine...a future doctor :D Introduced by a friend through FB, we then met in Warsaw for the first time.  She was kind enough to show me around. We visited the Old Town and later the Golden Terraces shopping centre (HRC is located next to it) to have our lunch - KFC the fast food that I have been craving for all this while. I guess I have never had KFC ever since I arrived in Switzerland. I wonder why there is no single KFC outlet in here *strange* whilst Burger King and McDonalds are found everywhere. Then the fulfilling moment was, for the first time of my 2 years abroad (in Switzerland), I attended an English mass in Warsaw with her. It was such a nice feeling..I was taken aback for a while. Since my arrival in Lugano back in 2007, all masses I attended were in Italian. Attended a mass in Rome, lagi la sandi....in Latin ...huhuhu...

(Pic: The Parliament Building) Warsaw a metropolitan city, a new reborn city after the WWII just like any other cities. The only attraction I like is the Old Town - although I thought some of the buildings were not so 'authentic' but I really enjoyed having a stroll along the area. Not authentic in the sense that buildings were renovated, thus changing some original builts resulting the 'original art of work' were gradually vanished. Through a day tour, I managed to see some parts of the city by visiting the ghetto, a kind of a memorial site remembering those perished in the war, the Royal Baths Park (where you can see peacocks :p), Palace on the water and Royal Lazienki Park (Frederyk Chopin - the famous Polish pianist statue is located). I remember the tour guide had pointed on one building where Hitler stood at one balcony before. I blindly took some snaps but not sure which balcony though :p Well I bet 3 days is enough to visit Warsaw unless you really want to visit museums, galleries or theatre. Spent 4 nights in Warsaw then I went down to Krakow for another 4 nights before flying back to Switzerland.


(Pic: The camp guarded with barbed wires) Reaching Krakow, I visited Auschwitz-Birkenau, (dark tourism) - a concentration camp (Konzentrationslager Auschwitz) a place where a massacre took place during the WWII by Nazi, killing about 1.5 million people of which 1 million were Jewish, raided all over Europe.  Nazi carried with them a motto of 'Arbeit macht frei' (Work brings freedom) therefore all victims were forced to work, convincing them that working would bring freedom. It is a big area, with a lot of blocks. It has been turned into a museum in 1947 in remembrance of the victims and was opened for public viewing in 1994. Auschwitz is one hour by car from Krakow. I had a sad feeling visiting the camp. I could really imagine how people were killed as explained by the tour guide. People, man, woman, young, old, children, boy & girl - all were merciless and brutally killed. They were locked in the cells,  with no food and they died of starvation, some died of suffocation, some lack of control diseases, forced labor and some even were shot dead at the death wall and some ended their lives on the gallows. The worst part was when the poisonous gas (Cyclone B) used. People were locked in the gas chambers, naked, and the gas would be channeled through to some pipelines or holes. This was the instant method used to terminate people's lives and the first experiment were done on women regardless of pregnant or not :(

(Pic: The 'beds' in Birkenau camp) As we were told, the moment the door was opened, it was like a bursted dam, a throng of corpses came forth as they gathered in front of the door, trying to open it with the hope they could release themselves.  There were some scratches on the walls too, nail scratches, they were trying to get out from the cells. The corpses were burnt in an open area and later there were crematoriums built to avoid being tracked!  You could see display in every room occupied with shoes of adults, children, clothing, luggage - everything.  In Birkenau you could see the room and bed accommodating the prisoners - made of bricks. The 'bed' at the ground floor was allocated for injured and older people who couldn't climb the stairs up. People were only given food once a day, in the evening after having spent the whole day working - with only a small piece of bread.  The anniversary of the liberation of Auschwitz by Soviet Union  troops on January 27, 1945 is celebrated on International Holocaust Remembrance Day, Holocaust Memorial Day (UK), Holocaust Memorial Day and other similar memorial days in various countries.

Very sad indeed! Upon returning from the visit, I slept with  the scenes in the camp attached to my mind *scary*. I wanted to capture some pictures but unfortunately visitors are only allowed to take pictures outside the building..(jadi ambik gmbr dinding ja la :p). Visitors  can take as many pictures as they want in Birkenau though because it is an open area while Auschwitz is a museum. Some of the visitors in our group managed to take pictures some of the rooms inside the museum secretly though :p

(Pic: The Last Supper carved on the wall) My next destination was the Salt Mine, located in the town of Wieliczka. It is  one of the oldest operating salt mines in Poland. The mine has been the source of producing table salt since the 13th century until it was stopped in 2007 and has been transformed into a tourist attraction. Very interesting - you would walk down 63 meters underground, about 2.5km to visit what are kept inside. It is amazing enough to find various sculptures of historic and mythic figures including statues of famous people around Poland carved from salt. Two chapels can be found inside the mine with the salt carved sculptures of Jesus, Mother Mary including The Last Supper and other saints as well as the decorations such as the chandeliers.  Often it was referred to as the Underground Salt Cathedral of Poland due to its large chamber with walls carved resembling wooden chapels built by miners in earlier centuries, an underground lake and exhibits on the history of salt mining found underground. 


(Pic: The Main Square) Since the population is 90% catholic, churches, cathedrals and chapels are everywhere in Poland (in fact not only in Poland but almost everywhere in Europe). Visiting cathedrals is not allowed during mass service but there is a small chapel provided if you want to have a quiet moment with God. It is the same thing in Krakow. Strolling around Krakow especially the old town, you would stumble upon lots of churches, chapels and cathedrals besides other historical buildings. I was not sure how many churches/cathedrals I have visited.  I wanted to join the Footstep of John Paul II tour but it was not just my day. The availability of the tour didn't match my schedule and it required a minimum of 2 persons taking it altogether. The tour was held on the day I was leaving for Switzerland. There was a tour the day before but it was in Polish so the intention was halted. I prefer Krakow than Warsaw could be due to my inclination and interests more on historical buildings. I enjoyed walking around the town, capturing pictures, visiting places etc. Krakow is the place where you can track down the history of Jewish too, starting from its culture, cuisine to people especially in the Jewish Old District. I thought of visiting the site where the shooting of 'Schindler's List' movie took place but it was closed due to maintenance. 

Well, in fact there are so many places to visit in Krakow. The Main Square itself is so entertaining. I encountered many amusing things and scenes and some even funny incidents. One performance caught my attention while wandering around the Main Square was a guy performing his marionette show, attracting visitors using puppets resembling world famous stars such as MJ, Elvis Presley, Tina Turner and Celine Dion.  So talented!  He would pause for 5-10 minutes before recommencing the next show. I watched him performing 5 times during that day! Awesome!. It happened too that from 9-12 July an International Festival of Streets was held so there were so many interesting shows staged for visitors, free of charge!  I like one of them, the group from Ukraine, it was so hilarious and engaging! Too bad, I just managed to watch the shows on the 9th only as I have to go home the next day. 

As usual, on any visits I made there would be 1000+ pictures captured and this trip was not exempted either :p I don't know what are those pictures captured but hey wouldn't it be nice to keep good memories? Times cannot be turned back!  

Paris Air Show 2009

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For the first time in my life I had attended such an enormous and a prestigious  international air show. This was a biennial air show in Paris which encompassed both an exhibition of aeronautics products and also an air show. The exhibition started from 15th until 21 June 2009 meanwhile the air show were held from 19-21 June, 3 consecutive days. 

My loved ones had to work on weekdays but with his extensive interest and great desire in aeronautics, parallel with his field of work too, we managed to catch the show on the 20 -21 June 2009 even though for only two days. He however immerses himself more on helicopters though. Ever since we have been together, in a way, I have been influenced in indulging myself with this kind of thing too although I have not yet developed my full interest into it :p I thought I would be bored but it was otherwise. Both of us were really having fun with it although it was a bit tiring journey.  We drove to Paris early morning on 20 June and reached Le Bourget Airport at noon.  Stayed overnight and left the scene at 5pm on the next day after the event was concluded.  Pity him, as he had to take on the wheel for about 600km per route not to mention about the parking space we had - it took us one hour walking to the exhibition area from the parking zone...huhuhu...nevertheless both of us were glad as we have been a part of the crowds on the scene. 

The air show was absolutely fantastic and magnificent, no doubt about it but there was one particular and enthralling scene caught my attention - PHOTOGRAPHERS! They were really diversified, came in different sizes and brands of devices, blended of animated actions, and so on. You could see, starting from amateur photographers (like me) to professional photographers, devices from digital to DSLR, people as young as they are to old men, women, men...everyone! Brand? Nikon, Canon, Sony, Olympus, Pentax - you named it you got it! This would be another place where you could also see lenses come in various sizes and shapes - from short to long, from small to big - everything! 

I should have taken the best possible shots of those mirage, hornet, catalina and what not from the runway, taking off and landing but I couldn't locate the best spot.  The area was totally congested with people - in fact with taller people. The petite me had tried to slip through among them, with the hope of joining them but failed :p 

Anyway, I appended some of the photographers in actions here,  secretly captured <--- by pretending to take photos on the plane on display behind huhuhu...) *these photos  were on Facebook too*

How long and big the lenses can be?









With such a long and big lense,  I bet this guy even managed to capture the pilot on action - up in the blue sky :p

oh my!..exam....

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I finally finished my last paper today. I hope I will 'really' finish with this exam I just had this morning and do hope it will be the last one ever. Finish in the sense that I will pass it! It was a written exam, Global Corporate Communication and this is my elective subject.  It is more about public relations and media. Two good questions, more on practical and application of theories. It really tested your understanding on the subject matter as answers should include concrete examples and justifications. We were required to write an essay of one question out of two. As far as I am concerned, in my entire duration of 2 years with the university, this is the third exam which I think has met the level of a Master's degree (you figure it out the rest :p). The other two exams were Destination Management & Marketing and Event Management. The questions of the exam were not bound solely on what you have learned from the book, but it's more on practical, logic thinking and towards a problem solving matter. Scenarios given were either based on a real or a probable event.

Well...well..well....now what? What have I done this time?  I did a mistake in such a precious time and opportunity. I know exactly how to answer question no. 2 but it was like a hell out of me, I then answered question no. 1, thinking that I know it better than no. 2..uhuks...What a silly mistake!  Question 1 has two parts (a) & (b). I jumbled up the part (b) huhuhu.. The part (b) was asking the generic principles of public relations. I did put one of them though but it was not enough as there are about 7 or 8 generic principles. I elaborated about the two-communication method by focusing on the model of PR...lol :p The exam carries a 70% marks from the total assessment but even so, still it takes a bigger portion out of the big sum of 100%. The balance of 30% is derived from our group presentation and a written report which we did in May. 

My only hope now is I will get through that exam even though with a 6!  Otherwise I have to resit that paper in September ...uwaaaa.. and this is the thing that I really want to avoid! If I get just a 6 for this, I will be more than content! My priority now is my thesis and I can't afford another exam in this short period of time :( No one to blame but myself! I did well in the previous exams of Destination Management & Marketing and Event Management and how nice it would be if I manage to do a 'hat-trick' though! 

By the way, a friend (my classmate) told me yesterday, she was not asked questions about methodology, thesis and its related during the Research Methods exam. Instead, the examiners indulged themselves enthusiastically, asking about her internship experience with the Splendide Hotel (a well established and a 5 star hotel in Lugano). More questions were about the hotel. The only question asked which has a tiny part (or maybe not even tiny)  to do with her thesis was 'so how's your thesis going?' She replied 'I haven't done anything yet' .....and with all their so-called 'friendly conversation' she picked up a really good grade for that.  I don't blame her though, she did her part by answering all questions too. 

Interesting isn't it?  You see how antic and buffoon this university can be! I am not talking about a university in the third world countries but this is in Switzerland, a developed country! I am so impressed to the verge of  plunging myself into the Lugano lake for 10 times in a row. Worst even, I  should go forth and back to the submit of mount San Salvatore non-stop till I die to show how frustrated am I. But I bet all these strikes are nonsense as it won't change the management to be in a better shape at all.  

So tell me, should I or shouldn't I be mad about it?

the very educated old man...

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I went to Coop, a supermarket nearby to buy some groceries to cook for lunch.  I was at the cashier and there was this old man, asking me not to take over his place on queue as he was going to take something else.  I obeyed his so called instruction but the counter was already cleared as the lady in front has done her payment.   The guy didn't turn up so another lady on queued behind me asked me to go ahead.  I was in the midst unloading some of my groceries when suddenly the old man returned and was really angry. He talked in Italian saying I told you I would go first... such an uneducated people...and he went on mumbling.  The sad thing was, as how 'multi-skills' he was, together with his cranky & peevish looks, grumpy, bubbling,  he removed all the things I put on the conveyor belt at the counter. 

On seeing at what he did, the old lady in front of me responded, to back me up. There was another lady in the queue who suddenly came forward and talked something to back me up too. This time I just couldn't absorb all words because upon hearing too much Italian words at the same time especially when words were sped up, I would simply get 'dizzy'. The cashier was saying that, look at this lady (pointing at me) she's so calm and why are you get mad. She was supposed to pay first and bla..bla...bla... Later there were some mouth-fighting ensued among them. The old man even mentioned to the old lady in front,  challenging her to call the Police to arrest him if he was wrong.  

I didn't say any words. I was totally mum. Not a single word even though I was pissed off. I just couldn't say anything not only I was shocked but it was due to my poor command of that language :(.  Now I regretted very much for not having mastered the language well for the period of my stay here. A golden opportunity has been wasted so easily :( *sigh*. I now realize words such as come stai, tutto bene, grazie, bella, bello  and those nicest words couldn't help in an aggravated situation like this. I just waited my turn to pay and stuffed all the things I bought and left. He wanted to pay before me but at the end I was the one who finished stuffing my groceries. At the time I left, he was still at the counter putting all his groceries in the plastic bag.  

On my way home, I felt like I wanted to cry, regretted very much why didn't I say something. At the counter I wanted to say like 'although I don't speak good Italian but I understand it and don't simply say people are not educated' but the fact is  I didn't.  How I wish my loved ones was there.  I am sure he could have defended me...uwaaaa... but he's just too far :(  How I wish at least people I know like Salma or Giulia were with me too as they could have uttered something to the old man. I am not that so vocal compared to them. Sometimes I can be outspoken too but only with the right language. How I wish I have said something showing that I am not that stupid. I don't mean to be rude to the old man but he was so damn rude to me and I think there are times, things should be reciprocated as the same way as it was. I didn't mean  to challenge him either but just to say to his face that if he thinks he's really a well educated people, he should not remove my things from the conveyor belt in the first place. I didn't buy 10 trolley of groceries either for him to get mad at me.  The reality is, I just couldn't come out with good words to tell him. With my mediocre level of Italian, he might not understand what I said and I might not understand what would I be uttering too. 

I bet the people on the scene were either sympathized at me or bewildered as there was not even a single word articulated from my side although how rude the man was! I wouldn't say I acted normal though.  There was not even a long and sullen face, what more looking so grumpy and mumbling! On a second thought I guess it is such a futile act to fight with someone who thought he's well educated but in fact he is indeed a silly person.  It's better too I didn't say anything to this  'very-well-educated-old-man', otherwise I could have pulled myself down to his level and insulted my intelligence :p. The way I observed, he could have been a crazy man even not to the brink of a completely silly one yet but the sign towards it is apparent. His action speaks for itself  - he is on his way to that level :p 

Knowing myself so well, I could easily turn myself into an incredible hulk - (a woman version) and utter all those bad words if something really pissed me off to the core but surprisingly, this afternoon I didn't.  I thank God for that, otherwise it could have worsen the situation.  I thank God too I didn't learn how to say bad things in Italian yet or else I could be the one arrested by the Police instead of him! 
I finished one exam on 17/6 and passed it.  It was not a good grade but the important thing is I passed :p 

"The hardest struggle of all is to be something different from what the average man is" (Charles M. Schwab). In some cases, I could sense there are some good things to be different or rather to be 'unique'.   I am not sure whether it is doing something with to be different or otherwise but in Switzerland and Italy, oral exams are also used for non-language subjects. The first time I heard, I had a funny feeling, thinking this is a little bit 'weird'.  It is not saying I do not concern or give a heck about my studies but I know I am not good  in oral exam. It has been always just not my best time when it comes to oral exam.    I would be having a wrecked on my nerves with all emotions melted into one; shivering, collapsing, blackout, vomitting huhuhu... I tried to be calm and relax but I couldn't afford the waiting period. It this circumstances, it is true that waiting is indeed torturing. It would just kill me badly.   The pressures are greater on oral exams compared to written exams. It is similar to attending a job interview but I guess on exam, the degree of desperation to pass it is more than hoping to be employed.  It has a great level of compulsion.  At this time the only thing in mind is to fake as if you really 'love' the examiner although the fact is that you never have liked him at all :p 

As always, for me there is a dire need to pass the exam once and for all, no matter what otherwise I will be dead! Based on my personal experience, unlike attending any job interviews, although the needs to get the job is critical and pivotal but there is always another opportunity - it is like, if I fail this one now, I can do further job hunting and go for another interview. Failing a job interview would still provoke some frustrations inside but it is not similar with the frustration of failing an examination. An exam is like a chain which affects not only your overall grade but it could also pull down the whole structure to the grain! The onus would be, if you don't pass one single exam, in the end you will not get the paper - a certificate. It is such a waste of time, seeing all previous effort and hard works go in vain!  

I have always had a qualm and skepticism about an oral exam especially when it does not concern about testing your competence level in language.    As far as I remember, the only oral exam I've got back home was when it has to do with testing the proficiency level of language. This was during my SPM and recently my IELTS two years ago.  Adversely, it's not the case in this university. Oral exams can be done in Statistics, Economics, Mathematics and what not.  It is good to test the level of understanding on the subject matter but I am not sure if it is appropriate to have an oral exam in Statistics though. Well that might be better, but tell me what is it to do on explaining the contents of a book or the PPT slides being taught in class! I don't see it ever matched the purpose of evaluating your understanding. Some students could have just learned them by heart (including me :p) for the sake of passing the exam. 

Most of my friends who used to have oral exam found it good on the ground that you could argue/defend your answers or statements and you could also express your opinions and ideas.   I think, written exam too would allow you to do the same.  The good thing about oral exam is that student won't be able to cheat by bringing a 'toyol' with them as some of my friends used to do. The possibility to cheat during oral exam is definitely slim. 

In some circumstances, the virtue about oral exam is each student will get different question. Some students might get easy questions and vice versa. Some students might be shot with loads of questions and some might be not. In written examination, students would get equal number of questions and the same type of questions. In oral exam, the mood of the examiner would contribute some factors too, whether he is in good mood  in the morning, afternoon or evening or otherwise. I bet there is a tendency of a bias factor such as favoritism.  Throughout my experience, some professors would deem you do well if you could answer it as fast as lightning! Ridiculous! There is no room for thinking. In written exam, you have the opportunity to think and scribble some draft answers etc. If you cannot answer the first question, you have the choice to jump to another questions that fancy you most.  Oral exam would not allow you to do that. Once you cannot answer the first question, a guarantee of failing that subject is already on hand. 

Anyway, we had this Research Methods examination. The questions evolved around the students' thesis (the methods, approach etc).   I am not complaining because I got a lower grade for this but I have some doubts on a few things.  Firstly, some students have conducted their research and even one of us is finishing.  So the methodology used was definitely correct otherwise she would not be able to continue.  Secondly, the examiner himself is also supervising 3 students. So, what questions were asked to the 3 students during the exam? I am sure he didn't ask about the methodology since he was the one who guided them through. It is impossible for him to contradict himself. One of the 3 told us she was not asked about her thesis but on something else. It could be FAIR and NOT FAIR. FAIR in the sense the examiner didn't ask that question on the notion that he knew the answers well and the idea of provoking may not be useful.  NOT FAIR because since he knew it already, therefore questions regarding methodology and related were skipped.  It therefore saved them. What questions asked, nobody knows. Third, some of us do not even have supervisors or topics for the thesis. So I believe you will never get it right when replying about methodology and approach especially when you do not have any idea what to research.  Fourth, it was like condemning the other professors who are supervising other students, as if the methodology/approach given were not good enough.  One of my friends were asked 'who is this Professor X to say so?'  Every time, on oral exam, there were a lot of provoking rather than helping! I am used to not getting good grades but some friends especially Salma and Giulia were totally upset. Salma is an excellent student, who could still get a 10 even without doing some revisions.

I guess to be fair to every student, for Research Methods, the best solution would be by having a written exam. Questions may be derived by providing a scenario of one area/topic to be research.  Then ask as many methodology or approach you want, you will have variety of answers! Yes, written exam is still the best! :p

Anyway I have two good news though huhuhu ...my previous working experience was granted 6 ECTS.  Another good news, I received my parcels (two books published by Ministry of Tourism Msia), with the assistance of my beloved friend, Barbara! Thanks Barb, I owed you a great gratitude!  

Well could it be me that living in denial and be dissented or is the system indeed horrendous? So ok...complete the thesis faster and get out of here! 

If you want to stand out, don't be different; be outstanding. ~~Meredith West~~